Friday, April 6, 2012

Another Turn

Daddy took another turn for the worse on Tuesday. It was a very difficult day for mom and I to hear that we are nearing the end; that he has the death rattle and today that his poor tired old body is beginning to shut down. My BFF Penny said maybe he will "rally back" as he did in the summer and then at Christmas. Well, he did rally back for one day only. Then he got worse.

Now I know how my mom felt when I was little and I had asthma. You so want to help them cough and breathe. You feel so helpless wishing you could do something to ease them so your loved one could be at peace. That is the prayer I have asked for for my Daddy.. that he be at peace and not suffering, laboring to take a breath without coughing or gurgling.

I am thankful for all my friends who have been there for me this week. I cannot truthfully say I am thankful this is happening to my Daddy. I want things to be the way they used to be but I know that they cannot be. So this is a very sad Easter weekend for our family. Someone asked me what our plans were for Easter. I have no plans except to be with my dying Daddy. That is all that matters. It doesn't matter if I have a new dress. I don't. I didn't have time to shop for Easter clothes. It matters not what we eat. Although I won a $25 gift certificate for a Honey Baked Ham. God was right on time with that one. I may not win the big lottery but, I KNEW I was going to win it! I realize I cannot win on everything but it is fun and exciting when you do win something.

Please pray for peace for my Daddy. Thank you. Hope you have a better Easter than we will.